Jamie and I started looking at houses. It's not the first time that we've taken to perusing the web, but this time we found a perfect house for us. The only thing is that it's back in his home town in Alabama. Yikes! It's not much but it's about 3times the size of our apartment and 3 minutes away from his parents house, in the heart of the town. It's a little old but sturdy. And this is the first time since we got here that I really feel like we could do this and that we need to move on. It's kinda scarry if you think about it. We would be moving 7 hours away, again! But we'd be moving home.
If you know anything about me then you'll know that I've moved around a lot with my family. It's not something that takes too much effort. Just the small ability to leave ties behind. I have gotten good at this. It's kinda sad but the only ties that have lasted me through the ages are from my parents and my sister. Everything else has fallen by the wayside. Not for my husband. He hasn't ever really left home, except to serve a mission. So this has been his first "real", big move. And if you know anything about my husband, you'll know that this move has taken a really heavy toll on him. The only real positive thing has been the military unit he serves with here.
Over the past week we've been on Spring Break! Lots of fun, even though we didn't do anything special. I stayed home all week and took care of some much needed housework. But I'll tell you that it felt really good. :) I got to work on some crafts for the home (I'll post them later) and just really take care of the home like I haven't been able to do. And then to finish it up, we went to the temple. It was a lot of fun to be able to enjoy a great time with my husband and all the youth that we work with. While I was there I was just so happy to have made all the progress that we did for them and to show them a really good time. But it also occured to me that we've made it a long way since we moved here. We've done a lot and grown in a ton of ways. I think that living here has helped us, but it has also taken a huge toll on both of us. We long for the nurture and care and love of home and family. We long for Alabama.
Now, my parents don't live in Alabama anymore, but over the 2 and a half years that we've been married I have come to love my in-laws. They have really taken me in and loved me because I love Jamie and make him the happiest ever. They may not ever replace my parents, but they have certainly become my second-best. They have done a lot for Jamie and me, and it's time to be close to family, close to friends, and active in a community that we can both love.
I hate to say it, but I just get this feeling down deep in my soul that it's time to move on. I'm not even sure that we could make it through another semester to let me graduate with an Associate's Degree. Heck, it's hard enough to get through this one! I just know that when it comes down to it the Lord will prepare a way. He definitely has told me so. I know that He cares for us and loves us and knows how hard it's been for us.